Who Am I Today?

Self-image is a funny thing. Self-realization is not so funny, but rather interesting. But identity is huge. (Ironically, that's the theme of "Band Geeks.")

I have big issues with my own identity, but I think that's because I feel like I'm so many different people that one is almost totally unrelated to the other.

This week I'm Computer Guy. I'm working out of our LA office helping them out. Even when I'm being Computer Guy, I find myself spouting answers to questions that, upon first thought, I would never dream I knew the answers to. But there they are -- eloquent, polite, concise and, fortunately, correct.

Then I get a phone call from an arranger who is working on a piece for my eternal CD project. And, in the blink of an eye, I'm the Musician Guy. I'm going on about keys and ranges and arpeggiating chords and musical styles like I majored in music in college or something! Wait a minute ... I did.

And then I'm Computer Guy again.

Once in a while I get to be Writer Guy. I like Writer Guy. He's funny and dynamic and confident. I never know when he'll surface.

I'm sure I have a few more identities in me. There's Husband Guy, and Disney Geek Guy, just to name a few. The one I like the least is Computer Guy, but it's the one I get stuck as the most. I've made some peace with him. I mean, he's the one who pays the bills!

Some day I'd like to pair down those guys. Some day I'd even like to settle into one of the ones I like the most. But for know I look at all of them as friends who don't interact much. Oh well.